'there's been times when I thought I couldn't last for long'

Change is Gonna Come by Sam Cooke has always been one of my favorite songs, and I never thought I would use it to help me.
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I've battled chronic illness my entire life,
and in 2010 my sister died from the same illness.
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After all this time I really thought I avoided depression somehow.
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Years later, it found me. And it is HARD. It's heavy. It's terrifying and lonely and nothing like I ever imagined.
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Now my voice is the weapon I use when I'm alone and feeling hopeless.
I found out that the only thing that's louder than the doubt and fear from depression, is to sing LOUDER than those thoughts.

I'm not out yet, but I'm Believing in that Change.
" It's been a long time coming "

*I've had laryngitis for a few weeks so my voice will sound shakey and cut-off fairly quickly as it's hard to hold a note.
As for lyric mixup, that's on me.

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